Last week was . . . something. On the one hand it was really great. Veronica turned 12. We went camping. We went to 4th wall night. There were a lot of fun things.
On the other hand I had THREE low-grade panic attacks in 7 days. That, combined with a bunch of other symptoms, made me realize it's time to go get some blood work done and see if it's time for some hormone replacement therapy because I'm probably in perimenopause.
So yeah that was fun.
But like I said, there were some good things so let's recap those!
On Monday my calendar said that Derrick had an orthodontist appointment. But part of me was like, "hmmmm, I think that's supposed to be on Tuesday." But I couldn't call the office ahead of time to check because they opened at 8:30 when the appt was supposed to be. So we just stopped by after I dropped off Veronica. And yeah, the appointment was for Tuesday. So I just took Derrick to school and then went to work.
After school Veronica had theatre. Last year I would wait right by the door to meet her when she came out. I was so used to her having separation anxiety I didn't want her to worry about me not being there. But now she's (mostly) over that. I park down the road and then wait on the sidewalk by my car. She can still see me when she comes out the door, but she walks the block to me. While I'm waiting for her I admire this hanging baskets with giant petunias in them. I love that the city does things like this.
Jori had salad and a soup. Olyvia had a salad and soup. Hanah brought 3 sour dough pizzas. Chandler and Lindsay brought things too. There was also a lot of dessert. It was good to be among friends that had my back.
Everyone had fun talking. Chandler's husband Cort was telling us about the dunk tank that he and Chandler were renting for a stake activity on Saturday. They were renting it from the City of Filer. If they were using it within city limits the Filer fire department would come and open a fire hydrant so they could fill the tank. But since they would be using it in Twin Falls that wasn't an option. So Cort needed $1,100 (Or possibly $11,000 I'm not good with spoken number amounts) to rent the special fire hydrant tapping tool from the City of Twin Falls. The money was refundable after the tool was returned.
So he was telling us all the ins and outs of how to rent the tool and then tap the hydrant to fill the tank. I was like, "I love that you know all about this." He says that his family calls him Cort the Carney. He's always dreaming up plans to make a ferris wheel or a roller coaster or some other crazy thing like that.
Brandon wasn't called for rehearsal until later in the evening. So he was able to be at the dinner for a lot longer than we planned. That was nice.
On Tuesday Derrick did have that orthodontist appointment. They were fixing a bracket that broke - again.
Charlotte and Lydia have given up on Art Club on Wednesdays. It was too boring for them. (The club was doing stuff like painting rocks and Charlotte and Lydia are way beyond that.) So they have started going to Yarn Club on Tuesdays. A lot of their friends were in yarn club so they went to have a chance to hang out with their friends and just talk and crochet. It sounds so relaxing.
They spend a lot of time discussing whether the boy who has been bothering Lydia is doing it because he is trying to flirt or because he's just trying to be annoying. The consensus is that he likes her. But he is learning A LOT of hard lessons about how to win over a girl like Lydia. I'm at the point where I almost feel bad for him - but he also has been really annoying so he needs to be a little more mature in how he interacts with girls if he wants them to actually like him.
Anyway, all that is to say that I've ended up with more time on my hands on Tuesday afternoons. It used to be I would leave work and pick up the girls, but now I have extra time. So on this Tuesday I went to Goodwill and looked for some accessories to go with my 4th Wall dress. I found a long sweater and a belt. Here I am at home taking pictures to send to Jori.
That evening I spent some time outside moving grasses. This giant pompas grass is a volunteer. It's making it hard to see out of our driveway when we are backing up so it was time to move it.I dug it up and put it in the side yard in front of my bedroom window. We'll see if it works. The last grass I moved her didn't transplant, but I also kind of forgot to water it. So hopefully this one works.
And here's what the spot looks like without the grass.
I also moved some smaller decorateive grass from the front flower beds to some beds behind the garage. We'll see if those take as well.
Wednesday was Veronica's actual birthday. She was so excited to finally be 12. We've been teasing her about how she can "finally" sit in the front seat of the car. (It's funny because I've been letting her sit there with no reservations since she was at least 10. And I know I let her in the front seat occasionally starting around 8.) We took this silly picture to joke about it.
And we took this one too. But she didn't want me to put either of them on instagram.One was another gem display case and one was a crown made out of crystals.
Then we had root beer floats. They were so good.
I felt a lot better on Thursday - thank goodness. This didn't happen on this Thursday, but on a previous Thursday Charlotte had gone on a field trip for her Agriculture class - to an actual field. They analized soil samples. Charlotte is feeling like the class was a bait and switch. She was told they would study animals. But so far it's all just plants and soil science. But she did like the field trip because it was fun to get out of school.
The exciting thing about this Thursday was that Derrick went to his friend Max's house after school. Max is in the ERC with Derrick. He's also autistic and has struggled socially. He and Derrick have become good friends and so Max's mom wrote me a note asking if Derrick could come over. So we started texting and got that all set up. Both boys were so excited. And so were both moms. Derrick has a lot of friends in his church group, and they are very nice to him, but there's always kind of a distance because he's so different. But Max and Derrick don't have that distance. So me and Max's mom and thrilled that they can hang out together.
On Thursday night we got everything packed for our camping trip on Friday. We were going to Bruneau Dunes. This would be our 4th time camping there. Two years ago we'd camped with Jori and her family. This year we'd invited more people along.
I was feeling a little off again so I mostly supervised while Brandon and the kids got things from the garage and packed them.
On Friday I woke up with another low grade panic attack rising in my body. That was not good. I had so much to do. On of the big things was to go grocery shopping. I've been grocery shopping on Friday's after work. But this time I decided to go right after I dropped the kids off. That way the store would be less crowded. I'm glad I did that, but it was still pretty rough. I was taking deep breaths the whole way through the store. I kept thinking, "No, you will NOT fall apart on the baking aisle."
I took all the food home and put away the perishable stuff. Then I went to work. Work was actually pretty calming. I put on piano music to listen to and then just spent time with numbers and charts and spreadsheets. I think it shows how much I like my job when my job is the calmest part of my day.
Then I went home and went to work getting things ready for the camping trip. A lot of it was food related. I made a pasta salad - it had lots of tomatoes that I picked from my garden. I also picked raspberries to go with yogurt in the morning.
I put everything into the cooler and packed the dry foods in our food crate. At 2:45 it was time to start picking up the kids. Veronica hates her 7th period so I went to pick her up from school so she didn't have to go to that. (And so we didn't have to wait for her to come home at 4:00.) Then I drove her across town to Derrick's school where we picked him up early. While we were driving there she was like, "Oh this is really far." I was like, "Yeah, that's why I'm always hurrying you out of the car when I drop you off so I can get Derrick to school mostly on time."
After we got Derrick we went to the high school and picked Charlotte and Lydia up at their normal pick up time. Brandon was home a little after we all were. But he still needed to pack up some stuff. We were already planning to take two cars because we just have so much stuff and it's easier this way. So I left with Derrick and Veronica in the van. Brandon and the twins would leave a little behind us and Lydia drove so she could get driving hours.
The drive was a little less than 90 minutes and it felt really quick. Soon we were pulling up to our campsite. Rachel and her husband Ethan and their son were already there. We started putting up our tent and while we were working on that Jori arrived with Tim and their 4 kids. Brandon and the twins showed up a little after them.
After the tents were up Rachel built a fire at her fire pit and we all congregated there to roast hot dogs.
Here are some random pictures Brandon took.I wish we'd done a more official group photo, but these are okay.
I love this picture of them climbing it.
The moon was really pretty, but of course my camera didn't do it justice.
The kids had fun sliding down the back of the dune. They were all pretty wild and I was glad they got their wiggles out.
Here are Charlotte, Lydia, and Derrick sitting on the bench waiting after everything was packed up.
There had been some debate about climbing the big hill as a group. But ultimately we decided that was something none of us wanted to do that day. So instead we went back to the little hill. Brandon and I set up our canopy over a picnic bench so there could be some shade. We put the water cooler on the table because I knew every kid was going to come off the hill super thirsty. It was a nice hang out spot.It really was a tiny oasis in a bunch of sun. The kids played for like 90 minutes or more. Then they came and ate.
Around 2:00 we packed up the stuff and everyone started heading home. Here are my kids trying to catch a lizard.
He has quite the set up now with a new monitor and the keyboard and mouse. Now he just has to save up for the computer tower. And yes, I know this is a computer in his bedroom - but honestly I didn't think he'd get this far. I was like, "yeah sure you can save up for a computer to go on your free computer desk." I thought he'd give up after the keyboard and mouse.
Brandon started getting ready like 20 minutes after I did and I was so jealous that he just had to throw on some clothes and was basically done. His fluffy hair really went with the 70s vibe. His shirt had little jet airplanes on it.
Just as I was about to get into bed I checked my phone and saw a notification that Russel M Nelson has passed away around 10:00 that night.
He was 101 so it's not like it was a surprise, but it was still a little bit of a surprise. And then I realized that Dallin H Oaks would be the next president of the church and I was like, "Oh no." I've been kind of dreading this for a while. My feelings are complicated and I don't exactly have the words for all of it, but the simplest thing is that I feel like he is a bully and I don't want to support a bully.
So Sunday was spent doing a lot of soul searching as I try to navigate how much I want to engage with the church going forward. Its really really really complicated, but my basic instinct is to stay for now. But we'll see.
Sunday night we watched two episodes of Wednesday. The last one we watched had a really pretty cello arrangement of REM's "Losing My Religion." The phrase losing my religion really means something akin to losing my cool or getting angry. But I was feeling that song on a whole new level.
































































